On diet

Life's tough when I need to control my diet just because of lower body.This is so imbalance.Not fair. But somehow I won't take into account too much because life's a gift.Live to eat is exactly what I've always had in mind.Cheeros! I'm kinda tired now cos I played badminton this afternoon. Huu.정말 피곤해~ Thanks to Evan for making me so tired running around the court.lol. 

I'm feeling empty now :) That's a good thing because I want to relax and be free from stress. It feels boring whenever I'm home as I have nothing to do. There's no one I wish to talk to as well. I just want to stay by Evan's side, most of the time, maybe. He makes me very comfortable. I could remember the times when he tried to make me happy/smile, comforted me, listened to my problems, respected with me much care, bought snacks for me, did everything I told. Bottom line is he treated me with respect.

I have to thank god that I met him.I should do something for him.He's aways making me happy though he's tired. 김유중 너 바보냐?

I'm tired, mother

I felt the sudden urge to blog here - and so I'm here. I'm still pondering over lots of things.I'm always questioning about life - meaning to say what's really right and wrong. Is it very wrong to go club often? Is it very wrong for me to to do what I wanted to do?I knew the reason why you did this mother.The only sole reason is because you want me to be a good girl - a sweet decent girl that doesn't party.You care what others see in me. You worry that people will say that I'm a wild girl. Mother, please drop it. If you think that I should set boundaries in whatever I do, what is life then. What is life to me and to you?

What are you thinking?I'm sorry to say that I'm not the kind of girl you want me to be.I can't. I have a life.You should know this by now that I don't care what others see in me.Does it really matter afterall?You think I will live with it until I die and after that carry this to the grave with me?I don't.Even these things won't go down to the grave with me. Wake up mother. When exactly are you letting me go?How long more you're gonna do this?I'm growing up and I'm soon to be 24. I still have curfew at times?Wake up mother.I can take care of myself. How long more are you gonna do this?

How much more energy you can spend doing this?How long more you can stand this?Please. I'm tired.

잘지내?

Hi.I know I know,it's been awhile since I've last updated.But who cares now,I'm back anyway :) Cheeros!Wait.Im blank all of a sudden.lol.Hmm what should I write here?My story?Oh well,I gotta say lots had been happening.No escape.Life's a bitch and it's exactly what Joel has described.I like this quote though ;)

Had been working as a temporary full-timer in a music center, The Notes.Problem is, no matter how hard I try to avoid mistakes,somehow these mistakes just love to make its way in.I don't know really.Giving myself a good laugh.What to do.Have to accept it rather than resisting its existence.Boohoo

I'll be quiting real soon.This is one of the good news.I'll be officially off from the place after training the new girl.I pray hard that she can cope with the work there.Good Luck lady!It seems good at first but I'm telling you it's one of a hell as you continue doing it. ㅋㅋㅋ(^^,)/ I'm kinda sleepy now zzz.

Hopefully I can wrap everything up by tomorrow before I ciao. It must be tomorrow.No deli-delay.

Ok,basically that's all for now.So yeah goodnight.It's me Danielle signing out for good now.lol.

Wished I could go again

I had to admit that I'm missing the missions trip very badly. How I'd wished I could go again. There's so much I can learn from a single trip to somewhere I have not seen in my life. Somewhere and something new for me to experience. I have to thank god for all the blessings He had given to me, all the privileges I have now. Mel & I was indeed destined to go for the trip. We were supposed to go Cameron on the same date, however, due to landslide we called off the trip. What a coincidence. 

I'm so happy and glad to have gain something new from the missions trip. Seeing the lives of others and how they live, in a very remote area high on top of a hill. The road to the designated place was long and winding. Blessed that we arrived there safe and sound. I hope to go for such trips again sooner or later as I would really love to see even more things in this world. Helping others is my very own hobby and interest, thus, it's what I loved to do. Grant me another chance to go. 

I cried

I gotta pretend I've stopped loving you though I still love you. What am I suppose to do? I still love you. How can I get over you now?Please let me know. Give me an answer. It's tearing my heart apart very badly. Does anyone knows that I'm feeling so much of pain? So much pain that I'd rather leave this world. Can someone teach me how to forget a person?I wish there's a cure for this. God created a person with a loving heart but He didn't create a cure that could mend a broken heart. Now I'm laughing instead of sobering. I wished  there's a cure for this. Can someone please save me?! I had been shouting for help at the top of my lungs. Please. Save me. 

Why do I have to go through this again? Why? My heart is broken into two. I thought I'd given up but I had not. I need time. 

Just another Thursday

Hah I was home the whole day. I'd sent out my internship application to the IBM HR department this morning and fortunately she called me as soon as she received my mail, nevertheless, I will have to wait for the next call. I settled my resume as soon as I got up from bed. It shows how much I'm keen on the intership. But then let's not put too much hope in it and move on by praying hard. I need a job because I'm way too FREE now. I can't stand sitting at home while watching my friends working. I won't get a full time job now of course because I still want to relax. I got a strategy on mind ;)

I had prawn noodle with Melissa this evening. Glad to see her again but will be seeing her again tomorrow to distribute the flyers. The Community Day. I will pray for this day. 

P.s. Mok just texted to inform that he can't make it tonight. Hoho. No yum-cha tonight.

Blessings

My mind has become clearer today , and in fact, way clearer than before. I'm learning and absorbing new things each day and live with it with no regrets. Here I am today, making an urge to say that I won't regret anything I've done in the past. Though it is very sad to accept the fact that I'm on my own now but I'm growing stronger as each day comes. Honestly, I still feel a little pain in my heart at times but I'm trying to accept it as a positive thing and I'll take it as a good experience. It's a good thing to turn a bad experience into a good experience when we can learn so much from it. It's another way of living life. 

I've been praying almost every night. I make this little effort so that I can become stronger and learn to believe in faith. Apparently, I believed in faith because I experienced it on my own when I was going through a depressing stage. God was here for me all the time. How can I ignore the fact that He's by my side? I'm so glad to have prayed hard and waited with a heart that was almost bursting. I was begging God to bless and answer my prayers. He answered. Every now and then I'll be praying because I know He's here with me. I'm better off now with my current state. 

I don't know what plans God has for me in the future, but I shall wait to see it happen. Give me a mountain and I'll move the mountain in His power. I'll do according to His plans. If I ever have a chance to meet God, I will ask Him to grant me the ability to heal and help people. This is what I want to do now. Well, I've grown wiser over the months. Maybe yes maybe no but I'm able to see better now. I know what's best for me. I will listen to the words of Wise to help myself and others around me. I'am able to smile now. I learned a quote that is meaningful to me "You can never "just be friends" with somebody you used to love...simply because a little part of you will ALWAYS love them". I have to accept the fact that I have to continue to love to live a happy life. Not going to hate nor dislike the person. I want to love unconditionally.There's nothing I can do about the past.